forgotten friend

Since there is no way of reaching you I guess this the best way of conveying my message to you. I don’t really know how to start this letter but I guess I'll have to be frank and say what’s in my heart. I know that there are things that happened in the past that I know didn’t go well between the two of us. Although they are better left untouched I choose to say it rather than be forgotten as an unfinished chapter in my life. These past few days have been very unpleasant that I don’t really know what to say about our friendship. Why are you like that if I may ask? It is as if I've never existed. I just feel that I've been an expendable part of your life, an old friend that is to be forgotten in the advent of new ones. I've tried so hard to rekindle a friendship that I feel is worth it. For once I'd like to be selfish and just pour out everything that’s eating me up inside. I really felt bad about the way you acted when we saw each other at Greenbelt. You didn't even stop to say hi or a mere hello. I also do not know why you stood me up on the day of my party. Not even a simple text message as to why you weren't there. Why do you have to be so damn insensitive? There are people in this world that care for you, if you know what I mean and you know damn right that the world does not revolve around you. God knows how hard I’ve tried to keep up with you. I don’t even know if the term "best friends" is just a title or something that is real. So you tell me, did I do something wrong? Was there something I missed out in order for me to deserve this kind of treatment? If so I apologize to whatever wrong i did in the past. I'm just thinking that it’s been a long time and that by now we are mature individuals. Is it wrong for us to be friends? If so I'll just walk away. How I wish that you'd never resort to that. I know I've been harsh by the words I've said but I'm still hoping that you prove me wrong. At this point I leave the decision for you to make. I did my part and its up to you to decide the ending. All I ask is your friendship, is that too hard of a thing to ask? So please don’t take away a friendship I value so much. Always remember that I’m always here, still waiting for that friend that I miss so dearly.